My happy place

Whenever I feel like life’s taking me down or I cant handle it anymore all I need is a trip to the beach. It’s my happy places it relaxes me and it lets me get away from reality for a bit. Even though after I know I have to go back to my regular life. When I was younger my dad use to take me and I was such a wild child I would go as far as I could go into the ocean because I hoped that the mermaids would take me away. Lol!

Once I started to learn how to drive on my own I would go to the beach by myself at least once a week. I would be that lame person at the beach reading a book or just lay down and take a small catnap. Its always has  been a place I could get away from reality. When things get to rough in my life the beach is where you’ll find me.

Its one of the most beautiful places anyone can go to. I don’t care what anyway says, the beach is so amazingly beautiful I could stare at it all day. Just standing along the shore where the water can touch your toes and just hear the waves is the most relaxing thing on this planet. At least it is to me, I know not everyone has my same opinion. Even just sitting on a blanket with the sun warming up your body as you read a good book is the best feeling.

Whats even better than all that is going to the beach with the love of your life and sharing all those things with them. It truly saddens me when I see a group of friends that look forced or annoyed to be there. The ocean and the sand don’t deserve that they deserve nothing but love. All my good memories and great laughs are at the beach. I only like going to the beach with my closest friend that love it as much as I do. I truly am jealous of all the people who have house by the beach. They are so lucky to be able to be a walking distance from the ocean,

I remember when I first started dating alize she told me she didn’t like the beach and to be honest I almost broke up with her because of it. As mean as that sounds like I cant imagine being with someone who doesn’t love the beach as much as I do. But I didn’t break up with her as you may have noticed, Lol!! She said she give it a second chance for me and well lets just say she might like the beach a little more than me. That truly warms my heart so much. We both like to just sit there and watch the waves, or even just walk along the shore and get our feet wet and just talk about life. Im so happy I found someone who loves the beach.

I really hope that one day when I get older ill be able to buy a house by the beach. That would honestly be my dream, actually it is my dream.  I give anything to be at the beach 24/7, I love it that much. Honestly my depression gets so bad that the beach doesn’t always help. Sometimes I have to just be at the beach and just imagine my life without the beach. Then I realize how lucky I really am that it’s only a 35 minute drive from where I live.

Sometimes my depression really gets to me that I try to crush my happy place. I think of all the worst scenarios that could happen to me while I’m there. But to be honest I have to snap myself out of it. I cant think negative of my happy place. My depression use to get so bad that I wouldn’t even want to drive to the beach.

Im working on it on a daily just to get better. It’s a work in progress but in the meantime I know the sand and the ocean is always waiting for me with open arms.

M