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I met my beautiful girlfriend Alize about 3 years ago. We both had worked at Safeway and well we didn’t really work with each other, we worked in different departments. So one day I walked in the back room and she happened to be there, I walked passed her and I said hi she said hi back. I kept walking and then I felt bad  because I didn’t say her name because honestly it’s hard to pronounce well at least it was for me. So I turned back and I asked her how to say her name, she laughed and told me and then we both continued on with our life’s. No big deal!

A couple months after that she got promoted to Starbucks and thats when I started to talk to her more because I would order my drink, we started talking here and there and just being friendly towards each other. One day our co workers had set up a  bowling night but she did not end up going. I was kinda sad she wasn’t there because I was looking forward to seeing her there. So I had texted her and asked her if she was coming and she said she wasn’t sure and well I don’t know how I did it but i’m pretty sure I persuaded her to go.  She ended up going and we hung out but homegirl was hungry so I went with her to Carl’s Jr. to get some food and she had offered to buy me food since I drove and  I said no of course. But I was kinda happy inside knowing I was with her and that she ended up showing up.  At the time I knew I had a little crush on her maybe but nothing to major maybe I was just happy she offered to buy me food who knows. Lol!! After that bowling night we kept texting I would text her everyday just to text her, I would ask her to go eat after work and we would do that like everyday or every other day. I started to like her more and more and I always felt really nervous every time I would see her. It got to the point where I had really bad anxiety that every time i’d go to work and I would walk fast past her department and I wouldn’t say hi to her. But I would still want to hangout with her and it made me sad when we couldn’t hangout. The more I hung out with her the more I liked her. I tried to fight the fact that I liked her so bad because I didn’t want to get my hopes up. It was just something that I didn’t want to force and I loved our friendship so much that I didn’t want to ruin that by telling her I had feelings for her. So I just continued seeing her as a friend for a while until one day at night we were texting late and we were talking and she would say things that made me believe that she knew I liked her.  I was also texting my best friend at the same time and she just told me to tell her that it wouldn’t hurt anybody. I told Alize I liked her and well she didn’t say much she just said she had no idea and I felt like such an idiot and I didn’t want to loose our friendship. So I told her to forget it and to just act like I never told her I was so embarrassed and I just wanted to hide under rock. A couple days after that we were talking as usual and she said she wanted to go to the drive Ins or if that was too romantic and shit for me! Lol!! I honestly wanted to smack her and I said no. We had our first date 2 days after to the drive Ins we saw inside out and after our movie date we went to eat at in n out where we shared our first kiss! 💕 We had our ups and downs before we started dating her trying to figure out what she wanted and me well patiently impatiently waiting for her to be ready. I wasn’t trying to pressure her but I was trying to figure out what was going on and if I was wasting my time or if I had messed up a great friendship.  It took her awhile to figure out what she wanted But here we are now 2 years later we are going stronger than ever. I’ve never imagined that i’d be dating one of my best friends. I can tell her anything and everything and i’m glad I took that risk. Moral of the story! If you want to take a risk take it whether it’d be in your love life, friendships  , etc., take that risk! Don’t live life wondering what if I did this or what if I did that. Do what YOU think is best for You! I took a risk that day and confessed my crush to her and it was honestly the best thing I have ever done.  2 years and I couldn’t be happier! She is my everything and i’d do anything for her even if it means putting a simple smile on her face.  I would just like her to know…  Thank you for being here for me in the good the bad and the ugly. You are my number one supporter in all this and i’m your number one supporter in all your dreams! 🙂

M